Miss Turry

I am still confused by yesterday. As a nonconfrontational person, I have weighed my reply -- if I am even giving one. I still have the post in question behind a friends lock, where it should have been to begin with. I will probably just ignore this person and continue reading other places. I have obviously been confused with someone else because I don't know what she meant by assumed name. Unless she means Poppet, but that's a nick-name. Don't most people have those? My real name is Sarah then. I was not aware I needed to announce it. I don't even think I care enough about whatever is going on with them to bother. It's not as if that was the only place to read. I'm just confused.

I had a weird thing happen, so I defriended some people. It made me uncomfortable. I also stopped watching a community. I don't know who this person thinks I am, but I am not even going to argue about it. I don't know them, they don't know me. I only friended to maybe have perspective on the author. This is why I don't say stuff. Things like this happen. This is why I usually stay out of fandom and have for YEARS. I took all the authors except the one that's been nice to me off.

I am also going back and locking a post since she obviously took offense to it. I am debating even responding because this made me so nervous.

Have you ever read something, and you thought it was bad or could use some work, but you do not know how to say it to the writer because you feel like you know them? You feel like they are your friend and you like them? I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. This is bothering me though - a lot. I feel the need to say something before it gets worse (in my opinion) but I need to figure out how to do it constructively. The probelm is I get the feeling people will get defensive about it. I do not want that. Also, I feel like since I am not a writer myself that perhaps I do not have the right to say anything. I don't know about the struggle to get words on the page (or computer screen). I will have to give this lots of thought.

I am reading again. It is not getting better, and yet I can not stop. Most of the characterizations are so OOC that I feel the need to comment, but I won't. I lurk. I don't comment. It's very difficult for me to explain why I like or dislike something. I either do or don't. Yes, there are reasons, but putting them into some sort of sentence structure is not my forte. I do not want one of the first bits of input I ever give to be a criticism.

I am disappointed. Nothing I'd like to go into specifically -- not that anyone is reading this. A journal is always more for the writer than the readers anyway. That's probably why I hardly ever use this thing -- I am a reader. Back on topic: Just something I was excited about has turned out to be not very exciting. In other words as I stated before, I am disappointed. I had high hopes and so far things are not living up. Maybe it is my mood. I have not been in a very good one lately, and that might be affecting my enjoyment.

I re-registered for an account at FIA. I can not recall what my account was before. It's been years since I logged in. It has probably been purged by now anyway. No matter. Now I have a shiny new account that I will not be forgetting. What I also need to not forget is my promise to myself not to read anything naughty at work. It's so tempting to break that.

Upside? I'll probably go on a reading spree tonight.

It's been at least a year since I have even been able to read any fanfiction. I have spent the morning rereading old favorites at the Fire and Ice Archive. I have really missed that place. Maybe one day I will get up the nerve to leave a review. It's stupid to be so nervous about something like that, but I am. Also, don't want to register for anything while at work -- like an account. No recs yet. Not that anyone is reading this journal anyhow. I need to go commenting on people's journals and reintroduce myself.

She is ALIVE. I switched jobs, so now I have more time to read; it's been a while. There's so much I need to catch up on.

I am uncertain about my job. I have been here for over two years, and I am not going anywhere within the company. I realize this is purposefully vague. I said I was going to use this journal. I have put my resume out there. I hope I can find something new soon.

to actually use this journal.

Just a quick post to let everyone know I am back in town. Finally.

I have nothing much to say. Just that I'm doing my Christmas shopping, and that I'm glad there's been so much interest in the reader's group. Keep on posting, writers. I'm off to wrap my findings and stick them under our tree.